从《二泉映月》到《赛马》

此文写作于2015年,应公司的“家风故事”活动而作,个人觉得还是不错的。

我的父亲,一辈子清贫。

父亲是一个普普通通的人民教师,没有可歌可泣的丰功伟绩,只是简简单单教书四十载,但也是桃李满天下,春风遍人间。

十八岁的他高中毕业后回乡成为生产大队的记工员,那时候的农村是集中式作业模式,每户按照出产时间记工分,而父亲是当时大队里面唯一的知识份子,面对一群用手指都数不清数字的朴实农民,父亲拒绝了某些村干部不出产而记工分的要求,坚持按原则办事。所以他的记工员仅仅只做了一年,在下一届生产大会上被人顶替,村里唯一的知识份子和普通农民一起生产劳作。我曾经问他后悔吗,他说:靠双手劳动吃饭,踏实!

二十岁那年,村里按乡镇的要求建立了小学,父亲通过层层选拔,成为那所小学的校长。那时候的办学条件非常差,乡里除了给一间破旧的祠堂挂上了××村小学的招牌加一块黑板外,其他的东西全靠父亲亲自置办,他花了一个月的工资为学校买了一本《现代汉语词典》, 没错,那就是当时唯一的课本,到处东拼西凑借来一些残破的桌子板凳,就这样,一所小学就开张了。那时候上小学并不是免费的,乡里派人下来收完学费后就扬长而去,有几个孩子交不起学费,每天只能趴在窗户外,眼巴巴地看着教室里面,风雨无阻。父亲看不下去,让他们回家搬来桌椅,请他们进教室和其他同学们一起学习。几年后,乡里的办学经费终于下来了,翻新了教室,添置了桌椅,然而父亲因为没有收几个孩子的学费,没能继续留任校长。用他的话说,他当时的心情就像是把自己亲手养大的孩子送给别人一样。听到了这些故事,我也问过他后悔吗,他说:那些孩子朗朗的读书声一直在他心中回响,若再来一次,选择如初。

其后几十年,父亲作为一名普通的人民教师,从小学到初中,从初中到小学,教过语文、数学、历史、音乐、绘画等各个学科。当年的我,并不能够理解他所谓的原则与坚持,父亲才华横溢,琴棋书画样样精通,特别是拉得一手好二胡,当年快弓、跳弓、拨弦、颤音的技巧堪称县里一绝,理应不该如此落魄,任人差遣。在我看来,如今蝇营狗苟的社会中,父亲就像终年推动着巨石的西西弗斯,与周遭格格不入、迂腐而可笑。

和那些胸怀梦想而又自以为是的青年人一样,我带着不以为然和不可一世来到北京去追逐理想,然而一切并不像想象中那样简单。光怪陆离、纸醉金迷的世界不断腐蚀着我的三观;喧嚣、浮躁、雾霾压抑着真实的自我;纷繁而芜杂的问题、指责、刁难还有沉疴,晃得人眼花缭乱;三十而未立的我在毫无防备的情况下己成人夫,为人父,茫然不知所措。
身心俱疲的我回想起当年父亲的所作所为,恍然大悟。父亲从来没有正面回答我是否后悔当初的决定,而是在用行动在证明并不后悔所有的一切,虽然他的物质生活演奏的是一曲辛酸而凄凉的《二泉映月》,但他的精神世界里却是一曲奔腾激越纵横驰骋的《赛马》。

在别人眼中,我的父亲并不是一个伟大的人,但留下的足迹却是我远不能及的大写的人字。退休后的父亲经常提着二胡在公园里面演奏那两首曲子,远远地看着满头白发的他,我发现有很多东西是可以传承的,也是值得传承的。
而我,会成为他。

原创文章,转载请注明: 转载自飞月秀

本文链接地址: 从《二泉映月》到《赛马》

You May Also Like

About the Author: 楚有才

16 Comments

  1. My wife and i ended up being absolutely thrilled that Peter could finish off his analysis while using the ideas he made when using the web pages. It’s not at all simplistic to simply choose to be making a gift of hints which often a number of people could have been making money from. Therefore we grasp we have got the blog owner to appreciate for this. The specific illustrations you’ve made, the straightforward web site navigation, the relationships you help to foster – it’s all excellent, and it’s really making our son in addition to our family consider that the concept is excellent, and that is tremendously vital. Thank you for all the pieces!

  2. “Attractive section of content. I just stumbled upon your blog and in accession capital to assert that I acquire actually enjoyed account your blog posts. Anyway I will be subscribing to your augment and even I achievement you access consistently quickly.”

  3. How come I get this ? when using Firefox and when I am using Internet Explorer shows what I am supposed to get, (Wed) ,as the text. If you cannot see what I put down it is a small box with the numbers 26 and 20 inside of it.. Is there a fix for my problem?. Thanks in advance..

  4. Hey, you used to write wonderful, but the last several posts have been kinda boring¡K I miss your super writings. Past several posts are just a little bit out of track! come on!

  5. I just want to say I’m very new to blogs and really savored this website. Very likely I’m want to bookmark your site . You actually come with very good posts. Bless you for sharing your blog site.

  6. “Wonderful work! This is the type of information that should be shared around the web. Shame on Google for not positioning this post higher! Come on over and visit my site . Thanks =)”

  7. qGbtKZ You are my aspiration, I possess few blogs and occasionally run out from brand . Follow your inclinations with due regard to the policeman round the corner. by W. Somerset Maugham.

发表评论

电子邮件地址不会被公开。